On February 21, 2011 I left to Hawaii for my Grandpa’s funeral. I was supposed to stay for just a week, but I ended up staying for five. My biggest fear in life is losing loved ones, especially without saying goodbye. I was slowly losing myself and my hope. The past five weeks in Hawaii really helped a lot. I just needed to get away from everything. I needed a break. I needed to heal. Yeah, the pain’s still there and to be honest I don’t think that it’ll ever go away, but it does get easier to deal with. Within these past five weeks I watched my Mom and Dad say their ’see you laters’ to their parents. No one will ever understand how much that hurt to watch. I thank God for my family though. This has only brought us closer. I put myself in a steep hole that’s gonna take a lot of work to get out of, but I thank God for just being on my side. I strayed away from him, but I’m coming back. I didn’t lose my Grandpa because he still lives in me. All he ever wanted was for all of his grandkids to graduate from college. My Grandpa Solomona Fuiava Sr. passed away before I graduated high school so he never got to see me walk and now my Grandpa Vainu’u Toeaina passed away before my college graduation. School was very important to them both and none of them were able to watch me graduate, but I know they’ll be watching in heaven. I only have one grandparent left, and that’s my Grandma Vaiula Fuiava. The day I lose her…I don’t know what I’ll do, but I pray to God that she’s able to see me graduate from college and that she’s able to watch me play at least once. I know she’ll love my spandex haha. If she does leave before that time, I pray to God that I’m able to see her one last time, just to tell her how much I love her and just to say goodbye. I don’t feel the same way that I use too. I feel like I’m putting up a front, but I gotta fake it till I make it. It’s back to reality and I’m about to knock it out. To my angels up in heaven, Solomona Fuiav Sr., Vainu’u and Iliganoa Toeaina, I love you all with my entire being and I’m looking forward to that sweet day that we’ll see each other again.